Prone to Wander
Twenty-six years ago, I was a 25 year old mom to one 2 year old little boy who was my whole world. I can’t say he was the easiest child. In fact, he was as stubborn and strong willed as any kid I’d ever known, but that didn’t change the fact that I couldn’t imagine not having more kids. Every month I was disappointed that I wasn’t pregnant because by my plan, we weren’t running on schedule. We tried fertility treatments for about 9 months, until we ran out of money. Around that time, I doubted God big time. How could He promise to give me the desires of my heart and not do it when those desires seemingly lined up with His word?? How naive I was, but God lovingly guided me anyway. He let me sit in my questions and doubt and anger and grief for a time. And then He reminded me of who He was. When my son was 3 ½, we moved to Naples, FL. I started a Bible Study there, and through this study was led by God to begin praying, “It’s okay if I never have another baby. All I need is You.” ...
